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i don't have much going on in my life right now. except.. yes, my girlfr. hahaha. irritated already ah? CHANGE CLASS AH~ learn from Royce Tay Jia Jun one.

i know i've never been in a real relationship before, this is my first. and maybe i still dk what i'd be facing in future. but yknow, i'll treasure what i have now.

live in the moment. let tomorrow's WJS handle tomorrow's worries.

some might say that i don't really know what love really is because it's my first. everyone has his/her own definition to love. isn't it?

some might think that being in a relationship is all about how your lover makes you smile and laugh and not give you stress about your relationship.

some might think that being in a relationship is all about appreciating one another and not give problems to the other party.

some might think that being in a relationship is all about being happy and all.

but my definition of it is that when you decide to make her your girlfr, you decide to make all her problems your girlfr too. jealousy, pain and unhappiness plays a part too. if i don't feel all these, then i guess i haven't loved her enough. i always think, i always think about unpleasant stuff. i worry because i love her. i worry because i worry about us. people might think that i over react and is too sensitive, but oie! that's because i only want her to myself! i don't wanna share her. i don't want her to drift away from me. people might say i am over protective. which boyfr likes to have guys look at his own girlfr with the lustful thought right?

ok i believe that different people have different ways of loving. and being all sensitive and clingy and protective is how i express my feelings. yknow, people run out of vocabs and descriptions to express their feelings. so action has to come in. after all, action speaks louder than words. and i don't think anyone would feel annoyed or get tired if they actually feel how sincere his/her lover is.

you guys might be saying i'm emo and all the bullshit but some times you just need to be emo. then my friend, i don't think you've loved like how i love now. at least i know i'm loving with all my heart now.

i swear i'll smile unknowingly whenever i see her pictures.

AYE CAN'T A GUY HAVE FEELINGS???